Not living in the moment but also living right above it.
Both the personas, the one inside the body and the one standing right behind are influencing the moment. I am tired of being aware. Only a self-conscious person would understand that logic. It’s not like the part of me that’s self-conscious can actually do anything. It is only aware. Aware of all the doings of the conscious mind. It looks, sit’s back, and watches you-judges you. Chiming in from time to time. It is aware of everything. It knows too much. And knowing creates artificial predictability.